Elastic Band Life

So I was cycling to work the other day and I really like cycling to work firstly because it dries my hair and 9/10 I don't have time to dry my hair after a shower (because its always nice to smell nice before work!). And when I cycle I generally put some upbeat music on my phone and bob along with it and let my mind go blank.


However when I say I let my mind go blank it actually goes further from blank then actually possible. I think about the important things in my life but with a serine outlook, like "I should start putting aside more than €200 a month for my future" and "Instead of getting a iMac and thinking of all the ways that I can get the money as fast as possible I should focus on making my bosses think I am fantastic for future promotions". It is the same level of serenity you get before you go to bed and you have something important in the morning and you realise you really need the sleep but you go into "closed eyes but can hear everything and you're not asleep". I just find these times when you perceive something to be of the upmost importance and you need exactly 8 hours sleep prior to this event happening it puts things in perspective.

Anyway the wind was blowing through my hair and the day was beautifully sunny for Dublin and I cycle through our local park which has beautiful bridges and ducks and swans and I was in my perfect mind-free zone where I could put everything in folders and files and arrange by importance and then I pulled into work with this level of purity and then stepped into work where everything becomes organised chaos of me.

I'm an incredible organised person if I do say so myself and I like to be busy which is the reason I have always loved being in college 30-40 hours a week and working 20 hours a week and then I get bored on the weekends and this has always led to my family and friends thinking I need to detach myself sometimes and "have a life" but I like being busy and like checking my works Twitter at home and doing extra work for college when unnecessary and over thinking simple facets of my life like "I could do a part-time Information Technology diploma at night" which then I think em, when exactly am I supposed to sleep and ever the most organised person can struggle and stretch themselves to thin.

So I sit here on my break in work wondering when exactly will this elastic band that is my life snap and I become a disorganised mess who can't achieve anything because I was always so busy that I'm just relaxing now.