It dawned on me recently when I was having tea with a friend in a delightfully cozy cafe in Dublin, that my biggest commitment at the moment in my life is still Ed (education). Ed is a great guy and everything but I'm 23 now and we've been going steady since I was 4. And the reason why this dawned on me only recently? When I signed my contract for my PhD which said I was going back into a relationship with Ed until March 2017. That's a big commitment right?
Now don't get me wrong, I love Ed, science and getting to don my lab coat every day. I get to be lucky enough to get funded to do research, which isn't as glamorous as "The Big Bang Theory" makes it look but then again they are Physicists and I guess I'm more a Food Scientist come Pharmacologist. But I'm worried that I'll fall out of love with Ed at the end of my 22nd year in education and that thought simply terrifies me. I'm a self confessed nerd and geek and I don't ever want to not learn.
So in a cathartic attempt to put pen to paper to relieve the pressure (similar to how peeps with haemochromatosis have to bloodlet/phlebotomise) I'm hoping this fear for commitment along with that dastardly psychological postgrad disease "The Imposter Syndrome" don't interfere with my want to be committed to lifelong learning.
